After the death of my grandmother, I began experiencing many digestive problems. From the time she passed in September to December, I had lost a significant amount of weight. My friends and family became concerned that I was developing an eating disorder and would constantly shove food in my face. No matter what or how much I ate (approximately 2500 calories per day), my weight stayed the same. This led to many problems with my menstrual cycle, including amenorrhea and increased severity of PMS symptoms. Over the next months, I would oscillate between constipation and diarrhea, with constant bloating and reflux and occasional nausea. There was not one day where I felt “normal” and that my digestive system was working the way it should. I sought medical attention, but blood work showed I had no food allergies, my thyroid was working well, and I was not anemic. By the summer of the next year, I was having extreme pain in my stomach. After being tested, it was confirmed that my stomach was bleeding. I received an endoscopy which found nothing, no ulcer, celiac disease or H. Pylori. I was put on acid reducers and told it should all work itself out. Not being satisfied with that answer, I sought help from a homeopathic doctor who discovered an intolerance for potato. This did not seem like a life altering change, until I found out potato is used in many foods as a preservative; including enriched flours, most milk products, and iodized salt. If I was to accidentally eat anything that had potato in it I would get an instant migraine that would take me out for the rest of the day. After changing my diet, I was able to put weight back on and returned to a healthy size, but by no means did I feel “healed.” I still constantly felt bloated and constipated and the reflux only got worse. After a week of not being able to keep anything down due to reflux, I saw a GI specialist. I was told since I was feeling better that I was fine. He also conducted a colonoscopy, which again found nothing. It was a year and half after my problems began that I looked towards therapy for help.
With HBLU I was able to heal this food intolerance completely. The first time I ate a potato without a reaction, I had tears of joy. I no longer have to worry about each and every ingredient. I have mended friendships that were hindered because I couldn’t eat out without having a reaction. I cannot put into words how much my life has changed because of the healing work of HBLU. I no longer live in a constant state of anxiety that I will eat the wrong thing. I feel normal for the first time in years! My body and especially my digestive system are now functioning properly. It is now rare that I even have a minor stomach ache. I have freed up so much energy that was consumed by all those issues. I now can live life the way I chose and put energy toward achieving my goals. Most importantly, I got my life back! It is hard to put in the words the positive change in my life because of the healing work of HBLU. I am forever grateful.
In my 20th week of pregnancy I was diagnosed with a very rare and serious condition known as vasa previa. This condition is very serious for the mother, and potentially fatal for the baby. A team of 3 doctors were making plans to admit me to the hospital at 26 weeks for complete bedrest for 9 weeks through Christmas and a c-section at 34 – 35 weeks. I was so shocked about being away from my two small children for so long and all I wanted was a healthy baby, so I didn’t question much at that time.
After many sleepless nights and much anxiety, I decided to make an appointment with Amy, who was successful in helping my daughter deal with some school anxiety issues. I went in to see Amy in the hopes of calming my nerves, as I didn’t feel it was good for myself, nor the baby I was carrying, to be under so much stress. In just one session, Amy helped me realize something I knew deep down all along: I wasn’t successfully bonding with the child growing inside me due to fear. From the moment I found out I was pregnant, I was afraid. Afraid for the health of the baby due to my “advanced maternal age”, afraid that I was being “greedy” wanting one more child when I already had two healthy, happy, children at home, and just afraid in general.
Amy used muscle testing and mind-body techniques to diagnose this fear, which I was then able to appropriately address. I have used her techniques, such as visualization, to picture my baby in the future. This is something that I was not doing before. I was not visualizing anything past my current state of pregnancy, something that was obviously adding to my fear and anxiety.
Shortly after my session with Amy I decided to go for a second opinion. The new doctors could not detect the vasa previa, but rather found that I had the more common/manageable placenta previa. They told me to go home and enjoy Christmas with my family. I will deliver by ceasarean next week at 36 weeks and four days! Either I was grossly misdiagnosed in the past, or something happened during my session with Amy and thereafter when I started to emotionally heal. I will never know for sure, but I believe Amy’s techniques dramatically changed both my life and my baby’s life. Thank you Amy!
“I had been steadily gaining weight and unable to start any kind of regular exercise program for about a year, using work and a busy schedule as an excuse. Finally the scales hit a number I could not stand, and Amy and I went to work on it.
We talked about an incident that had happened in the recent past, where I had felt very attacked by a woman about how I dealt with her pregnancy. The incident made me feel like I wasn’t a valuable person or woman because I didn’t have kids, or didn’t understand her plight. She actually used the word ‘inhumane’, and it made me feel like everyone saw me as some sort of bitter, twisted, barren woman who was jealous of those with children.
I thought I had come to terms with my decision to not have children. I have a wonderful husband and life, and having children at 40 (or later!) does not make physical, financial or emotional sense. I don’t have the broodiness that I had 10 years ago. But this incident really brought some emotions to the surface, and Amy, through HBLU, helped me clear them. We realized I was stuck in thoughts about not being a true or real woman because I did not have kids, that life was “over” and I might as well give up.
After one very intense session, I went home already feeling better. By the time I went to bed, I had made the decision to sign up for my fourth half-marathon. I signed up the next day and told my personal trainer (whose efforts to that point were for naught, since I had only been going through the motions) she needed to help me get ready for 13.1 miles.
Since that day, about two months ago, I’ve lost eight pounds, gained muscle and tone, have changed my eating and drinking habits and can fit into clothes I haven’t even dared try on in over a year. (One pair of pants was covered in dust on the fold!)
What I love about HBLU is that WE do the work, not just Amy or not just me, and I feel in control of my progress and healing. When I started, I couldn’t run one mile without stopping. Eight weeks later I am completing 8-mile runs without a problem. I feel lighter in my soul as well as on the scale thanks to Amy and HBLU! Thank you, thank you!”
-Jeannie Click here to read related blog post
I have suffered from anxiety and insomnia for years, but I was never able to really get to the root of my issues in order to heal them completely. I had previously tried traditional cognitive behavioral therapy, medications, and use of sheer will power to overcome my problems. Over time, I thought that it would be best to just accept my anxiety and insomnia as “who I am” and just deal with it. I would constantly try to run through the past events in my life attempting to uncover why I was the way I was, but I would never succeed. I felt hopeless and frustrated.
It wasn’t until I started seeing Amy that the true root of my problems was revealed. I had no idea that my anxiety had stemmed from a panic attack I had in reaction to a very traumatic event in my teenage years. The panic attack in itself was another trauma on top of the first one! It seems obvious to me now, but I would have never known without Amy’s help. I discovered that I had put so much pressure on myself to succeed following that traumatic event that I had in a sense created performance anxiety with additional anxiety built on that first panic attack. Amy also helped me understand parts of my personality, through Enneagram testing, that could contribute to my anxiety.
Once I saw the big picture, Amy helped me to heal from the body level up, where we did all sorts of interesting mind-body techniques to literally melt away old feelings and trauma so they no longer could affect who I am today. As we healed the core of the issues, I was naturally able to forgive myself and look forward to the future. After just several sessions with Amy, I am happy to report that I am anxiety-free and sleeping well and where I always used to be sick with some cold, flu or respiratory infection each month, I have only been sick once in 4 months!
–Kathryn Click here to read related blog post
“I came to Amy not really knowing what to expect. As I told her, I just couldn’t get this girl out of my head…for the past 8 years. I would see this long-time friend maybe two times a year and whenever we were together something sparked up and we’d end up dating and then she’d leave and go back home 10 hours away and I’d be a complete mess. I found myself constantly dwelling on my thoughts of why we couldn’t be together. My friends hated her because of how I acted. I just could not get over her. I compared every girl I dated to her. It was terrible. I’d be going through my day and whatever I did, I’d think, “Would Anna like this? What would it be like if she were here with me?” I dreamed about her almost every night… and then I’d wake up sad realizing it was just a dream and we weren’t together.
So in our first meeting, we discovered I was holding onto this girl. We listed how and why I was doing this and did an intervention to let her go. After this first session, I stopped dreaming about her and after a few more even thinking about her. And then, literally three weeks later, I met someone wonderful that brings out the very best in me. Now we have been going out for over six months and I have never been happier in life and I love the person that I am today.
It’s not easy to describe to someone what Amy does for people, but I can tell you that she has changed my life forever. You don’t feel the changes happening until you just see your reality clear up and positive things materialize in your life. Thank you, Amy.”
I referred to Amy one of my clients who was at the end of her rope. She was cutting herself and drinking and had been through in-patient treatment 3 times in 15 months. When I spoke with Amy before sending my client to her, she assured me she was equipped to help her. This was important to me because my client was at risk of losing her family, her husband and perhaps even her own life. After one session with Amy the changes in my client were noticeable and have continued to be. It has only been a few months and I have seen her make more progress with Amy than with her previous therapist she had seen for many years. OUR client is now doing amazingly well, no longer harming herself and being a loving mother and wife looking forward to a bright future.
–Brenda, Licensed Massage Therapist
After I healed both my Childhood History Trauma and my Dental History Trauma with Amy, I stopped having nightmares, actually started sleeping well and having pleasant dreams for the first time I can ever remember…AND, I was able to sit in a dentist’s chair like it was nothing while the dentist drilled on my teeth for 2 1/2 hours.
Due to childhood neglect and abuse followed by numerous head traumas, I was missing many teeth and could not chew on one side of my mouth. I had seen dentists gasp in shock when I white-knuckled it to let them peek into my mouth. They’d look horrified and many told me they could not help me because there was too much to be done. When I met a dentist who offered to help me finally fix my teeth, I was sure I would not be able to handle having the work done. My dental history had been so shameful and so painful for me my whole life and my childhood was such a nightmare so the idea of sitting in a dentist’s chair, tilted down low with a masked man leaning close over me, a big bright light shining into my eyes and no easy escape—it was not something I could even talk about, let alone do.
That is all in the past now. Woo hoo! I got the dental work done and I now have a really nice set of teeth to show off as I smile a big, full smile now. I used to have a little smile as I tried to hide my awful-looking teeth. Having beautiful teeth has been my lifelong dream. I seriously still can hardly believe it every time I look in the mirror. I am so grateful! Thank you, thank you, thank you!”
–Jeannette Click here to read related blog post
During one of my sessions with Amy, the concept of a “deathwish” came up. Initially, I thought it was nuts, but as I reviewed many areas I continually struggled with, it became clear there were some things holding me back. Through a series of exercises, Amy walked me through some incredible realizations and healings of very old things I had no idea existed.
Though it’s impossible for me to explain how it worked, I know it has worked. Healing a trauma that started a lifelong feeling of unworthiness has brought a new lightness to life and an ease I hadn’t felt before. After this one session, I found myself singing along to the radio in the car, which is something I hadn’t done in at least 20 years!
After only two sessions with Amy, I feel so much better than I ever did after months or years of traditional talk therapy. Her methods really work! Although I’m very open-minded, I wasn’t sure I believed in my “deepest wisdom” until it actually started responding. It’s true–your body DOES know better than your conscious mind!
I look forward to continuing sessions with Amy, as I can see the progress we’ve made in just two sessions. For instance: I’ve never been able to control my tears, but after one session with Amy barely covering that problem, I found that I am now able to pull back when I’m on the brink of crying. What a liberation!
Also, I’ve never had so much fun with a therapist; so many are so doom and gloom, rehashing old traumas, even patronizing. Amy is like having a heart-to-heart with a good friend, with the knowledge that you will get healing as well! Thank you Amy–I cannot recommend you enough.
I first started seeing Amy off and on seven years ago. I thought, at the time, that my life couldn’t much worse. I was a divorced mom and in the year and a half previous my mother had passed away and my fifteen year old son had been diagnosed bipolar. I was suffering from major depression and although I was seeing a “talk” therapist twice a week and my psychiatrist had prescribed the highest recommended dose of prozac, I had gotten to the point where I didn’t think I was going to be able to function. I was an elementary school teacher and just getting myself to work and taking care of my son was a supreme effort. I was just barely ‘surviving’ when my therapist suggested I look into energy psychology, explaining that this was a therapy that bypassed much of the talking in traditional psychotherapy. She confessed that she had taken me as far as she could and hoped that this “mind-body” psychology would work — that Amy could help me. While very skeptical, I decided to give it a try.
As it turned out, it was not the lowest point in my life. In fact, a few months after my decision to try HBLU, I was diagnosed with a very aggressive form of breast cancer and I had to place my son in a residential treatment center several states away. I was in for the fight of my life and I entrusted myself to Amy and HBLU. The most remarkable part of my story, however, is not how one person could endure so much: grief, cancer, and depression, but that I came back from the brink, and I am now successful, thriving, and happy.
When I first started my sessions with Amy, I couldn’t even accurately muscle test. Amy skillfully guided me through this, however, and as I started to experience immediate results I became enthralled with the work we were doing and the changes in my life. Through Amy’s tenacity, where she had strength when I did not, we began to peel off the layers of resistance, fears, and life experience damage. My initial sessions often dealt with whatever “tragedy”, or “disaster” had come up that week, but as we pressed on and I became healthier emotionally and physically, we were able to address quality of life, matters of spirituality, and overall happiness.
Along my journey with Amy, I healed my cancer (6 years cancer-free,) and my depression (I no longer need to take anti-depressants). I was able to be a true mother to my son, and continue to do so. I attended classes and training, and myself became certified in HBLU. I continue to teach and I love waking up every morning to go to work. I still continue my work with Amy, however, the work we do now has a slightly different focus. We now work on goals which address the quality of my life. How can I make my “great life” even better? Financial prosperity, weight loss, and a love relationship have all been recent goals for me. Not surprisingly, I am actually saving money for the first time in my life instead of being perennially in debt. In the past four months I have lost 30 pounds! And, just recently, I signed up for a dating service. My life is very good and I am very happy. I owe my thanks, and my life, in no small part to Amy St. Hilaire.